Confirmation
By Savior Youth
Leif:
I and five other youth went through confirmation class this past winter. The classes focused on the central message of the Bible, liturgy, church history, sacraments, ethics, personal calling, and prayer. Having been raised in the Church, I knew a lot of the information imparted, but I still feel like I got something important from the class. I think that I, like many of my fellow youth, went into our group listening prayer session (the last class) with somewhat low expectations. The past autumn, our youth group had focused on listening prayer, but many of us were skeptical, thinking that confirmation bias (heh) and the desire to seem spiritually gifted would cause younger youth to latch onto meaningless mental images. When we had our group listening prayer session, though, we were surprised by how profound each other’s insights were, and how connected we felt with each other and God. We’re now meeting once per month to pray. I decided to go into confirmation class to have some concrete event to point to where my faith became what I believed because I believed it rather than because of my upbringing. I deconstructed my faith, and came pretty close to losing it. I had made up my mind to not get confirmed because (quoting from my journal) “I hesitate[d] to call myself Christian due to that hesitance itself, but that being said, Christian practices are enormously helpful to me.” There was no real religious or ideological label that I felt comfortable applying to myself, but I was more Deist than Christian. I never rejected the faith, and I always believed in a God and always knew that Christianity helped me in my life, but I was more drawn to secular philosophy and political theory than I was to theology. It wasn’t until I stopped viewing philosophy and faith as opposed to each other and started incorporating philosophy into my faith that both the philosophy and my faith started to click much more. Now that I’ve delved (and am delving) deeper into that overlap between faith and philosophy, I really feel like my faith has deepened and I have more of a sense of purpose. To paraphrase author John Green, it’s much easier for me to believe around God than in him- to see creation, scripture, and humanity as reflective of God’s love than as everything you need to know about Him. Another line that’s stuck with me is from “Harmony Parking Lot Song” by folk punk band Johnny Hobo and the Freight Trains: “Here’s to our lives being meaningless / and how beautiful it is / because freedom doesn’t have a purpose”. Or, if you prefer Paul the Apostle to Pat the Bunny, Galatians 5:1. “It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, therefore, and do not let yourselves be burdened by a yoke of slavery.” Ultimately that’s the crux of my personal theology. Even when it’s hard for me to have faith in Christ, my faith in love, and my belief in the necessity of liberation never falter. God is love, and it’s when I am most loving, and most loved, that my faith in Christ is strongest. I don’t see a specific moment where my faith went from my surroundings to my own, but I think that’s a good thing. Faith is an ongoing journey that I’ve always been and always will be on- but it’s only now that I feel like I’m far enough on that journey to justify marking my progress through getting confirmed.
Amanda:
If I’m being honest, I didn’t want to take the confirmation class but now looking back, it was one of the best things I could have done for my faith. When I first heard that there were confirmation classes available, I was hesitant. Unsure of who would sign up, I was concerned about the level of depth the time would offer. And quite frankly I was straying away from Christianity at the time, not being in a stable place spiritually and afraid of not getting much from the classes, I was against going. My parents finally convinced me to go (in return I wouldn’t have to go to the youth group for the rest of the year) and I started the classes. After the first class, I was hooked. With such a small group who I knew well, I felt comfortable and when learning more, I found others had the same questions as me. The teachings were interesting and informative, and they allowed me to grow spiritually in ways I didn’t know I needed. I slowly remembered how important faith was to me and why it was important not just in me but in others as well. While the teachings were great, what really impacted me was the last day when we tried listening prayer for the first time in the group. Listening prayer always seemed like a superpower, something only people with great faith and a strong connection with God could accomplish. It also seemed like a super easy way to spread confusion and misinformation due to your own subconscious. But when we tried listening prayer, everyone was surprised at the revelations. Not only did we have meaningful thoughts that were profound in their very nature, but they also almost always related to something deeply personal or monumental in the person's life. We all seemed to leave the church that day with a sense of awe at the power of the Holy Spirit. I certainly was deeply moved by this, and it inspired me to invest more time and interest into spiritual matters and to work to deepen my faith. Because of that experience, I feel that my faith is strengthened, and I feel more comfortable when praying for others. Looking back, taking this class has greatly helped me to grow spiritually into someone who is proud of my faith, and it has helped me learn how to connect with God in new ways.
Elijah:
From Ellen: Elijah tried attending the regular confirmation class but quickly realized that wasn’t a good fit for him. After consulting with Mary, we decided on a more individual approach for Elijah. Mary and Father Kevin helped us find a beautifully illustrated book written at a level Elijah can understand called, “The Illustrated Westminster Shorter Catechism.” Each evening before dinner Elijah read a simple Psalm, a section of the catechism book, and the weekly collect. Then he would ask us a question about something that stood out to him and we'd briefly discuss that concept. Mary has also been meeting with Elijah and they've gone over what to expect during the service and rehearsed a bit in the hopes that he will feel more comfortable during the service. We're grateful for the ways the church has been willing to accept Elijah as he is and to adapt the confirmation process to be meaningful for him.
Ash:
Hello. My name is Asher McNiel and I am one of the people getting confirmed. Confirmation is really important to me because I love the Anglican church and the liturgy. My family normally goes to Wheaton Bible Church, but I was baptized at the Church of the Great Shepherd as a child. I had my first real experience with the Anglican church when my friend Leif brought me to youth group. I have learned so much during this time of confirmation, and have met so many amazing people. I am really looking forward to growing in my faith as well as in this church community.
Meiying:
Above are some sets of colors that were provided by both Amanda and myself. As we went through the process of listening prayer, some of the things we saw for each other were colors. All of these were ways we connected to God and to each other, to help ourselves grow in our faith.
Zach:
In Confirmation, I got a better understanding of myself in listening prayer, and of how and why the philosophy of what I believe is based on. This stabilized my philosophical wanderings, and I came to understand myself and my relations to others and the world better.